Can I have this dance

November 5th, 2008 by gui2kays

Ok..today…is today..(bai chi*)
today is not yesterday…(of cuz la..==*)
Today is another day, same like the day before yesterday..(heh?)
It means boring like the day before yesterday lo..
also means nothing particular happen…Meaningless..(oo..)

hm…sista watchin a SG drama jz nw..
n …sumtin breaks my faith n confident..haiz…Distance does matters…lol

So sick of love song..
so tired of tears..
so done with wishing..you were still here~

haha..sry..was listening to “So Sick”..cant control myself xP

alryt ..continue..
but den…the song “Can I have This Dance” from Highschool Musical 3 was played..
(inside some blog of ppl i duno)
found out it kinda nice..n da lyric..well..great =)
here goes…

[Gabriella]
Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

[Troy, Gabriella]
Won’t you promise me (now won’t you promise me, that you’ll never forget)
We’ll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

(chorus)
It’s like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It’s one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Troy]
Take my hand, I’ll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don’t be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I’ll catch you through it all

[Troy, Gabriella]
And you can’t keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can’t keep us apart)
‘Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

(chorus)
It’s like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It’s one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Gabriella And Troy]
Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
‘Cause together or not, our dance won’t stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

(chorus)
It’s like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It’s one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

man…how sweet
n ya..im a boy posting bout this HSM3 thing…anything wrong wif dat? haha..
too bad..its too late to recommend the song for my aunt’s wedding thou..haiz..
btw..any1 can recomend a site where i can embed the song here?…share share ma..xD

oh oh..talk bout politics..
Barrack OBAma won!!
The 1st ‘Black President’
hm..y cant Malaysia learn a lil from them ?
where every1 are still cares about Racism..”skin colour” swt~
Obama won on his own terms, strategically and symbolically..ths all da ppl are saying..
Their president are chosen..despite da race..Its all about Capability..
Msia?..so sorry lo…

I stil remember i saw da news last few days..
i duno much bout politic..but i can see a chinese(i forgot his name) was giving his suggestion in the …i think dewan rakyat if im nt mistaken..man..those ..erhem..Bumiputera are teasing him..making jokes..man..i can see dey are nt serious atall..
Disappoint..haiz..wat country have i live in ?!!
but still i love my home…n i repeat..my home..not Malaysia..

Hell of a day

November 4th, 2008 by gui2kays

Hell of a day
Woke up in da noon today
Feeling bad…wasn’t in any mood at all for da day
Jz ryt im about to eat my ‘cold’ breakfast for lunch,Mum called..I have to fetch my sis from school
Ok..i finish my Brunch in 10 minutes..take my wallet,hat n off i go..
now..something bad happens to ruin my day.
i lost my car keys..accidentally ‘throw’ it to da bushes..n i hav to spend my time searchin for it under the damn hot sun.
After im back home..im drop dead at the sofa..hot…tired…

AFter a refreshing bath..it does clear my mind abit..my mood are slight restore..
but…it doesn las long..until i checked my exam results on9..as predicted..no miracles..my math = Fail
alryt..tht din ruin my mood dat bad..
Dennis called..ask me out to survey the location wher he’s gona celebrate his bday
so..i wait fer him to fetch me…in hunger…till 8 pm wher i suppose tob eating my dinner at my grandma’s
went to hav dinner at Kota Laksamana..kent..sharon..dennis..we had alil citchat..n it brighten upp my mood quite alot =)
den we went klebang lo..pantai puteri n etc..n found out its nt suitable..
so we plan to held it at Chrystal bay..da results are stil unknown cuz we are still discuzing..
jz right when we bout to send sharon back..dear send me a msg thru an unknown number..
telling me shes not coming back this weekend as she had to represent her family to attend her cousin’s engagement..
another disappointment of da day …haha…haizz…Im running out of time..how i hope we can spend more time together thou..
But each and everytym it ends up in disappointment n regrets..at1st i wish to settle it all ..communicating wif her this weekend
seems it had to b delayed…problems are gona remain unsolve fer awhile..
Its soooo weird..each n everytym when i hav da chance to talk..but i end up duno where to start..or i forgot wat to say
n jz when i kno wat to say..shes nt here..bz to answer a call..simply jz nt ther to listen..
even if shes beside me..she’l ignore wat i said …din pay attention..==’
always the prob stays hanging..and she nt knowin it atall..n in the end..i get all da blame fer being inconsiderate..
well..if im nt…ders noway im gona stand u..the real inconsiderate one my dear…

“hang on..hold on..dun give up…”
“you went thru a hell of a hardtime to get wat u have now..cherish it..”
“shes da one for u wat..isnt it?”
“This is her your talkin about..of cuz its nt ez for u..but ur gona b THE ONE!”
“etc…
well..this is all da shit i have heard from loads of frens..but dun worry..im hanging on to this shit ..haha
thx guys..u kno who u are..
im well prepared for all this..but sumtimes i also need somethin to supprt my mental n heart wat..ryt?
im nt invincible thou..
Its a matter of time and faith ..
well..i hav time…but faith…u haven giv me any thou..so sorry to say this…

well..continue with my daily stories..
we went pool after fetchin sharon home
Thx dennis n kent for accompany..
haha..i beat kent today without him even scoring 1 ball xD
n on da way back…thx dennis for hon-ing along da empty road for me to vent out my moodiness..

P/s  Jz telling whoever u guys outder ..im a person who crave for attention..jz incase u din kno..thts y i hate Loneliness that much..

Nothing more to say after this

November 3rd, 2008 by gui2kays

请了解,我是人,我有感情,我有感受
Please understand,I’m a human, I have feeling and emotion
像你像任何人一样
Like you and anyone out there
每个人都渴望被重视和关心
Everyone wants to be care and valued
你们需要的,一样我也需要
What you guys need, the same thing goes for me
请别自私,请明白
Please don’t be selfish, Please understand
我们都是一样的
We are all the same

想说的只有这些
This is all I have to say
说再多你不了就是不了
Pointless to say more
希望你看到
Hope you can see
我想表达的东西
What I’m trying to let you know
如果还是不行
If things still don’t work out
放心,是我的错
Don’t worry, Is my fault
是我太天真
I’m too naive

后结果不重要
与不爱没关系
活着的这一天
上帝给的机会
是唯一的终点

Over the rainbow
No colours or whatsoever
Left only sorrow and sadness
You are far beyond reach

Yearn for a starting
Only you can give
Unknown, Are you still here for me?

4th November 2008 1:20 am
Written,
Kay’

Another day

November 1st, 2008 by gui2kays

wow..today..blur..woke up in da afternun..cant even diffrentiate dreams n reality
until my fren came to my house oni i start to regain consciousness haha..
after fetchin a few frens we went DP
I jz realise i forgot my wallet when we bought da movie ticket..swt~ how unlucky..
we went fer a lil walk n drink at MP
n dey all talk bout those interesting things happen in school..haiz..how i wish to b in da secondary school life again…T,T NOT!!!
haha..n wat funny is dey are all teachin a fren of mine how to Hold a Girls hand..xP

We went bk to DP at 5 cuz da movies are startin at 530pm
wat worst tht can happen bside i left my wallet at home?
Great..n it happens ..i cant get in to the cinema ==’
I left my wallet ,IC ,Licence at home..n the movies are  18PL
swt~ n the stupid supervisor make me to prove im 18 years old..WTF!
how da hell im gona prove when i left my wallet at home?..n hey…every1..u b the judge..do i look below 18?
n threatening me to call the police sayin im tryin to cheat my way in..
So i said…Lapor la..!! n dat stupid guy jz went silent n try to walk out frm me..
I was like WTH!! did i have to cheat for a mere movie n to a lousy piece of shit like u?

..i hav to “sacrifice” my fren to drove me home..take my wallet..n miss 30 mins of the movies..haiz..anyway…thx pal..
F**kin Malay PIG..curse u work as da “doormen” fer ur lifetime..
if it wasnt so many ppl der i wud hav throw him my IC right on his face n stuff his mouth with the tickets
Fuhh! Angry!!
man i hate PIG..

After the movies we went our separate ways..
i went home n eat my dinner ..then off i go to my laptop again..
Ivan nudge me n call me via Msn..
wat a surprise..he tot im havin prob in my relationship after seeing my personal msg n blog..
wat a fren he is ei..haha..
we had a long chat bout both our life..past, now…future..
2 hours went by in a flassh n off her go to watch football..haha

jz when i tot im alone again..a senior of mine when i was in YB giv me a nudge..
Devilgirl89( i duno her real name)
aw..its been a while we chat..
well..off we go..realtionship topic again..haha..
why every1 likes to talk bout relationship prob wif me?..xP
well..kinda happy when she say shes happy to chat wif me compare to her otha fren..^^
1 AM..shes off..n im alone again..haha..

i sent a msg to dear..well..sumtin lyk a rhyme..to wish her goodnyt…
but ..i duno why..her reply feels lyk shes angry..
did i think too much ?..but my instinct nvr wrong bout her..
mayb she misinterpret it n misunderstand the meaning behind the rhyme..
cuz when i read da rhyme da 2nd time n try to think in a negative way..
it reali does mean sumtin not good..xP
n so..i send her a msg via Friendster..y not sms?
cuz i dun wana mess up her night..just incase i think too much n upset her again..
so in frenster msg..she will read it a couple of days later or anytime but now..
just hope she’l reply me ASAP…n time fer me to do xplanation d..haiz..

2:38 AM
i guess its time to sleep..haiz..tmr a boring day again..haha..

我恨我爱你

October 17th, 2008 by gui2kays

又不回我。。讯息不回我。。Msn不回我。。唰咯。。我当你在忙着。。不过你有时间回人却没时间回我?
每一次。。我都迁就、迁就、再迁就。。迁就你所做的一切。。说真的。。换做是别人。。已经不行了。。(问了六个人。。每个都说不能接受)。。我会这样。。是因为我相信你。。可是你却没给过我相信你的理由。。我真的怕有一天我撑不下去。。

其实我真的有怀疑过。。你到底有没有付出过真心。。因为隐隐约约的。。说真的。。我真的看不清你的心。。也不知道你心里在想什么

现在的心情,就像"Hate that I love you ” 这首歌。。一模一样。。
看了歌词就明白。。

That’s much I love you (yeah)
That’s how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeahah)
And I can’t stand ya
Most everything you do
Make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile (no… oh…)

‘Cuz you won’t let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can’t remember what you did

But I hate it…
You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long that’s wrong

But I hate it…
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don’t want to fuss… and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah…)
I can’t stand how much I need you (I need you…)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oooh whoah…)
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh…)

And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh

Sad and it’s not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I… love you beyond the reason why (why…)
And it just ain’t right

And I hate how much I love you girl
I can’t stand how much I need you (yeah…)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can’t let you go
But I hate that I love you so

One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me…

As much I love you (as much as I need you oh…)
As much as I need you (oooh… as so much I love you)
As much I love you (oh…)
As much as I need you

And I hate that I love you soooo
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can’t stand how much I need ya (cant stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can’t let you go (but I just can’t let you go no…)
And I hate that I love you so

真的。。每一次你伤了我后。。你都会像歌词所说的那样
你都有办法让我不去介意..不去在乎,甚至让我忘了一切。。
你真的是个高手。。
只能怪爱你太深了吧。。自己找来的。。唉。。

当爱情失去自尊就不是爱情,而是奢求
再好的人都有个底线。。我也有。。希望你不会另我失望。。
因为我是以真心去对待。。我希望从你身上获得的也是如此,不然一切就失去了意义。。。

Hate that I Love you - Rihanna Feat.Ne-Yo

October 15th, 2008 by gui2kays

[Rihanna:]
That’s much I love you (yeah)
That’s how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeahah)
And I can’t stand ya
Most everything you do
Make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile (no… oh…)

[Ne-Yo:]
‘Cuz you won’t let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can’t remember what you did

[Rihanna:]
But I hate it…
You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long that’s wrong

[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate it…
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don’t want to fuss… and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah…)
I can’t stand how much I need you (I need you…)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oooh whoah…)
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh…)

[Ne-Yo:]
And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Sad and it’s not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I… love you beyond the reason why (why…)
And it just ain’t right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can’t stand how much I need you (yeah…)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can’t let you go
But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me…

[Ne-Yo:]
Yeaahhh… Oohh…

[Both:]
And I hate that I love
You soooooooo!

[Rihanna:]
As much I love you (as much as I need you oh…)
As much as I need you (oooh… as so much I love you)
As much I love you (oh…)
As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate that I love you soooo
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can’t stand how much I need ya (cant stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can’t let you go (but I just can’t let you go no…)
And I hate that I love you so
[Both:]
And I hate that I love you so… soo..

Right Here Waiting for you - Richard Marx

September 17th, 2008 by gui2kays

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn’t stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can’t get near you now

Oh, can’t you see it baby
You’ve got me goin’ CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I’m with you
I’ll take the chance

Oh, can’t you see it baby
You’ve got me goin’ cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

The Lake House

June 26th, 2008 by gui2kays

I found this movie are worth a watch.

I 1st watch this at Genting High last year December..in the hotel room..haha

kinda bored when i 1st watch it and doesnt know what exactly its about.

Today,well not today..few days ago..i watch it on HBO

from the beginning till the end..and slowly i get to understand the story,and the true romance in it..touching..

here i copied a synopsis from a web..more or less the whole story are here..just that you cant experience how the touching and romantic parts feels like..

Seriously, I almost cry  in the end thou..xD

First time I wud sit down for 2 hours  watching a Romance based movie..hard to bliv myself either..haha

It’s a winter morning in 2006, and Dr. Kate Forster and her dog
"Jack" are leaving suburban Illinois, where Kate completed her
residency, as she prepares to take a job at a busy Chicago hospital.
She is reluctant to leave behind the refuge of the woods and the
beautiful house she’s been renting, an artfully designed home with
glass walls that overlook a placid lake.

As she goes, Kate leaves a note in the mailbox for the next tenant,
asking whomever to forward her mail and pointing out that the
paint-imbedded paw prints on the walkway leading into the house were
already there when she arrived.

Alex Wyler is a talented but frustrated architect supervising the
construction of cookie-cutter condos at a nearby site. He arrives at
the lake house and finds it neglected - and with no signs of paw prints
anywhere. The house has special meaning for Alex, having been built by
his estranged father, a celebrated architect who let his career grow at
the expense of his family, and himself. Like Kate, Alex feels a sense
of peace at the lake house and commits to restoring it. He doesn’t
think twice about Kate’s note until days later when, as he paints the
walkway’s railings, a stray dog runs through his paint and leaves fresh
paw prints right where Kate said they would be.

Baffled, Alex writes her back, pointing out that the house was
unoccupied before he came and wondering how she could have known about
paw prints that weren’t yet there. Kate, who just left the house a week
earlier, imagines he is playing some kind of joke on her, and she fires
back a curt reply. Just for argument’s sake, she asks, what day is it
there? "April 14th, 2004," Alex answers. But for Kate, it’s April 14th,
2006. The same day, two years apart.

As Kate and Alex continue their correspondence through the lake
house’s mystical mailbox, they confirm that they are, strange as it may
seem, living two years apart, and each at a time in their lives when
they’re struggling to make a new start. Sharing this unusual bond, they
reveal more of themselves to one another with each passing week.

In one of her letters, Kate mentions a Jane Austen book, Persuasion,
she had accidentally left at a train station in 2004. Alex goes to the
station and finds it there on a bench. Seeing Kate for the first time
as she boards the train, Alex keeps the book, deciding he will return
it to her in person some day. Alex then sends Kate an annotated map of
Chicago and invites her to take a walking tour of his favorite places
one Saturday morning. Somewhere near the end of the journey, Kate finds
a message sprayed as graffiti on a wall: "Kate, I am here with you.
Thank you for a lovely Saturday together."

Determined to bridge the distance between them at last and unravel
the mystery behind their extraordinary connection, they tempt fate by
arranging to meet. Alex makes a reservation at Il Mare (Italian for
"The Sea"), an elegant restaurant (whose name is an homage to the
original Korean motion picture), for a date two years in Alex’s future
— but only a day away for Kate. When she shows up full of wonderful
expectations for their dinner date, however, she waits- but Alex fails
to appear.

Kate is heartbroken, and she begins to wonder if she has been making
a mistake focusing so much of her emotional energy on a man who, in her
time, had clearly moved on. She tells Alex about a day right after she
left the lake house, an unusually warm Valentine’s Day when she’d
witnessed a terrible traffic accident and held a man who died in her
arms. Life was too short, she now knew, to wait for what might be. She
asks Alex not to contact her again, to "Let me let you go", and stops
coming to the mailbox for his letters.

Alex decides to quit the lakehouse and move in with his brother in
Chicago, leaving all of Kate’s letters packed neatly in a box in the
attic. The dog Jack runs away as Alex packs — only to appear at the
side of Kate’s old boyfriend Morgan, just after Alex passes along the
house keys, reminding him of Kate’s wishes to one day live on the lake.

The 2006 Kate renews her relationship with Morgan, and they live
together in her Chicago apartment for over a year. One afternoon,
irritated with his inattention and preoccupation with work, she walks
into the bedroom, where a hollow-sounding area under a floorboard
finally gets her attention. Stepping hard on one end, she pops the
board loose, revealing a small package hidden underneath. It is the
Jane Austen book (Persuasion)
Alex retrieved for her from the train station. He has left a flower
marking a specific passage: "There could have been no two hearts so
open, no tastes so similar, no feelings so in unison…." Kate holds
the book to her heart.

One unusually warm winter day, Alex and his brother leave their
office, heading out to lunch. When Alex suggests they meet up after
work for a beer, Henry reminds him that it’s Valentine’s Day and he has
plans with his girlfriend. Valentine’s Day 2006…something clicks in
Alex’s memory and he takes off for the lake house.

For Kate, it’s Valentine’s Day 2008, and she and Morgan arrange to
meet at an architectural firm to review renovation plans for an old
apartment she wants to buy. Morgan, unenthused about both the project
and the idea of moving, has been so busy with work, he has forgotten to
get Kate a card. After they meet with the architect, Kate notices an
illustration hanging on the conference room wall -it’s the lake house.
The young man explains that it was drawn by his brother Alex Wyler, who
by coincidence was killed in a traffic accident two years ago to the
day.

Kate quickly realizes why Alex never met her at the restaurant; he
was killed the day they first began their correspondence - the day she
sought solace at the lake house after witnessing a horrible traffic
accident.

She rushes to the lake house, leaving a bewildered Morgan behind,
and frantically writes a note for Alex. Don’t go looking for her, she
begs him. Wait for another two years and come to the lake house,
instead. It is in this very note, in fact, that she first explicitly
professes her love to him. She puts the note into the mailbox and
raises the flag.

But Alex has gone off to find her - and sees her sitting there in
Daley Plaza on that unseasonably mild Valentine’s Day afternoon in
2006. As he seems about to step into the street, he raises his hand and
rereads the note from Kate, begging him to wait for her - and wisely
decides to remain on the sidewalk, splitting himself off from the
original timeline and avoiding a heart-rending tragedy for both Kate
and Alex’s younger brother Henry.

Kate kneels by the mailbox, sure she was too late. But then the
mailbox flag slowly lowers - Alex has picked up her note. Soon she sees
a vehicle arriving beyond the high grass and then a figure walking
toward her on the gravel path, and it turns out to be Alex. "You
waited!", she cries as they begin to kiss each other. And then they
turn and, still huddled together, proceed up the wooden walkway toward
the waiting lakehouse.

My Real Life Friend please read

June 1st, 2008 by gui2kays

This will be the last post i wrote here…
not gona use frenster blog..unless for very very very important reason..
erm..

and..
Guys..
I hav been tryin to say this fer a while..
I duno how to say it in real life..so i guess writing here so u guys can see..
(If u guys are true fren u will sure read)

Enough of those craps guys..
This is my life,n I choose how I wana live..I choose what I wana Do
I choose who and what
not u guys..
So stop tellin me all those crap
n decide something for me..

AND..
Im really alright now..
just , occasionally "rendezvous-ing" with my memories sometimes..im ok..really!!
I kno wat u guys did are gud fer me
n i appreciate..
I appreciate ur advice
i appreciate all ur effort of tryin to pull me out of this..
but dont you think its my own prob?
I kno what im doing..
so leave me as i am alrite?..

n sometimes u guys dun hav to hide something from me..
it makes me much more awkward
jz b normal lyk usual..

n btw..watch ur words sometimes..n da teasing part..expecially Jxxx Sxxx
I still care ok?i dun lyk ppl teasin my friend..
and its already been a long time…its all over..just like the time passed..u cant rewind it back…

Time to CLose FILE!!!

p/s   Stop making up stories of me and other ppl also..I dont like misunderstanding!!
I will tell if its real..I wont hide ==’

If u guys still remain lyk dat

trust me…you wont see me smiling ..

我没有失去一切,我还有一无所有

May 30th, 2008 by gui2kays

不管你能飞多高你都不会碰到天空
就像空气般不存在的存在,看不到,抓不到
有些东西,碰不到就碰不到,不是你的就不是你的

就算世界放弃你
所有门和窗都不再为你打开
不要怕
我心还在跳
我还有我自己

Dreams are only meant to be dream
No matter how much I wished
How much I have cursed
The star still refuse to shine
The moon still hides behind the clouds
The night dont recognise me anymore
How much we gave…
Ends up Im only digging my own grave
Left only shadows…
I put it back to the corners of my mind
I kept everything inside
and even though I tried,
It all fell apart..
Image,Voice,and Memories are fading
Breaking all the bonds I have kept…
I tried so hard and got so far
I had to fall to lose it all
In the end
It doesnt even matter
I carry on when I lose the fight
Because you live
I didnt lose everything
Because I still have NOTHING..