想对你说的 让他先说了 从此只能猜测
你流泪是因为快乐 想要给你的 他先给你了 从此只能负荷
寂寞和爱本来能分割 祝福你是我的保护色
专心扮演朋友的角色 在你们拥抱的那一刻 我心一分为二
欺骗你是我的保护色 甘心做个爱情的弱者
真爱不是就能逃的远远 等待是我自责
路越走越曲折 不能回头了 能伤害我的 都是我爱的
还保护什么 还保护什么 祝福你是我的保护色
专心扮演朋友的角色 在你们拥抱的那一刻 我心一分为二
欺骗你是我的保护色 甘心做个爱情的弱者
真爱不是就能逃的远远 等待是我自责
爱你是天责
你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为
我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你
已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
我以为终究
你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心
你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望
一个人静静地望着天上的白云,
我知道我又会想起你了,
明知想你会心痛，
会难过.
用情最多的那个注定是最心碎的那个,
每一次，
我都对自己说
忘了你，
就是放过我自己
然而，
我仍然不够争气
每次不经意间想起你的微笑,
所有苦心堆砌的心垒就轰然塌落,
是的，
我不够坚强,
我拯救不了自己.
你突然点醒了我，
我们的相识能够以年计算了，
你找到你爱的，
而我，
还在原地徘徊着。
孤独的双眼沉默着，
何时才被明亮发现，
躲在黑暗角落的我.
你是那道光束,
带着平凡的我走过奇迹旅途.
每到夜深人静,
我才倍感寂寞倍感心酸，
孤单的人心易碎，
总是看到别人双双对对 ，
才感觉，
一个人好孤单，
只是真心不在，
真心已不算。
电话那头，
又是沉默，
该放手，
却难割舍.
你的心已不属于我，
可我却还期待你的回应，
明知不可以，
却还是被牵引.
如果我能够继续等待，
如果时间能够停留下来，
如果…… 没有如果？
想爱不能爱才最寂寞，
我试着勇敢一点，
可我无法面对镜中颤抖的双眼.
你的寂寞让我留恋，
不小心回头看了你一眼，
只有孤单的人会寂寞.
喜欢就喜欢了，
心被牵动，
无须理由，
爱上你是我的自由.
明知你心里没有我，
也永远做不到你想要的那个，
却不由自主让你看到最真实的我，
掩藏住受伤的我。
如果我从没遇见你，
如果我从没爱上你，
如果我一开始没坚信,
也许我就不会发现自己的存在
也许我就不会是现在的这个自己.
如果爱不曾来过，
如果梦不曾碎过，
如果心不曾疼过，
那么我，
是否还是你认识的我？
别害怕，
我一直站在你的身后，
总在你呼唤时守在你左右。
但我是否会慢慢被遗忘呢？
我不想懂
我是否该继续烦着人呢？
我不想但我无法自拔，
不过既然你不喜欢，
我会努力试着不做个“烦人”
就算是毁了自己.
Everything shall be hidden and kept inside
Just like the yellow star i made with a tick on it among the eight 2 five
It shall remain unnotice..
Unknown by anyone
In the small bottle where only Me and myself knew
A secret that wasnt a secret
That will be known when the star are no more but strips
I’ll try my best..
To stay away in a distance…
But I still wish I could put two alphabet together, U and I
Why I care so much about it..?
Why is it I do so much although I’ll risk getting hated by people?
Not to show I care..
Just..something unexplainable..
Maybe..
Because My heart told me to..
Because…
I cant find a reason why I dont
I think it’s worth it even though I end up nothing in the end
I love to be a nuisance
I love to get hate by people
I’m stubborn
I dont like to sit and do nothing but watching
I dont want myself to regret
Because it’s my missing rib that God took it from me…
..simple way to say is..
Selfish..
I hate it..everyone does..
but…
never mind..
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Ill fake a smile,
And make them think Im okay..
Ill pretend to be happy,
And the pain will go away..
Ill make myself laugh,
And then they wont know..
Ill hold it all in,
And never let it show..
Ill give a small grin,
When I face the worse day..
Ill hold in the pain,
And give it my all..
Ill show only the good,
So they wont see the bad..
I fake a small smile,
Its not like they will see through this mask
The hidden mask that will remain so..
But the pain could slip through
It sometimes burns with such intensity..
Then I cry
Uncontrollably, never-ending
I cry myself to sleep..
And no one will notice that
Like always..
我知道你心里有个人
但谁是那个人。。
你总是笑着不承认。。
有时候真的很想问。。。
想从你的眼神。。
知道我有没有份。。
是不是你心里的人当然你不用明白承认
只要用你的眼神默认
我就可以再往前多进个几分
找个理由来等你从朋友变情人
其实我好几次想要开口对你说
爱情的滋味就好像玛奇朵
甜蜜的烙印在我心口
虽然我曾拉过你的手
摸摸你的头
但始终不可能是我
雨刚下过。。这一个夏天显得特别闷热
当你微笑看着我
世界突然间静止一分多钟
那一个moment怎么去形容
看到你那从心里出来的微笑
可是并不是因我而笑
喜欢一个人就希望她幸福
这个才是真正的喜欢
如果不能两个人一起幸福
至少你能得到幸福。。
。。还是不要喜欢我好了。。他很好。。你应该去喜欢他的。。
而我只是在你身傍默默守候。。继续做个无名骑士。。
能够遇见你已不可思议，
能够认识你是一种奇迹，
不管我们能不能再见面,
不管你会不会忘了我，
我只想告诉你一个秘密
我爱你
20 Oct 2007 6:31pm Cold and humid
Sitting on the sofa doing nothing..
I stop breathing,
Everything seems stopped for 10 seconds..
I hate it when the day turns night
It was so quiet,
I love to be alone in the past,
But now I don’t
Not when I met her
I can hear the crickets..It tells me I have nothing..
I cant stand the lonely and empty feeling..I m falling apart..
Can you hear me…I Dont wana be like this,
Please set me free..
Everybody’s got to cry sometimes
I never understood the reason why
Suddenly the answer is so clear I’m…
Missing you
Never thought that we would end this way
And if I only had three words to say
They would simply flow so easy, I’m…
Missing you
Everybody’s got to hurt sometimes
I always ask myself the question why
Now my pain easily explains,
I long for you
If I had a chance once again
I’d approach us like a love song
So tenderly I’d orchestrate us to be
A sweet melody
Everybody’s got to cry sometimes
I never understood the reason why
The answer is so clear to me now
Your smile lights up a room
Like a candle in the dark
It warms me through and through
And I guess that I had dreamed
We would never be apart
But that dream did not come true
And missing you is just a part of living
Missing you feels like a way of life
I’m living out the life that I’ve been given
But baby I still wish you were mine
And I cannot hear the telephone
Jangle on the wall
And not feel a hopeful thrill
And I cannot help but smile
At any news of you at all
And I guess I always will
Cause missing you is just a part of living
And missing you feels like a way of life
I’m living out the life that I’ve been given
But baby I still wish you were mine
没开口的话怎样才能懂
我好想把画面倒带回头
你留在我心中熟悉的表情
每个温暖纯白的记忆穿越了距离
拥挤的人潮没有人知道
我偷偷想你嘴角就会笑
不要说对不起也不要问原因
就让世界不停的向前
别忘记从前
最爱还是你这是我的决定
像宇宙相对的星互相吸引
慢慢就会靠近
慢慢就会忘记
还是要爱你
时间会证明
我爱你的勇气
牵着你的手才知道是永久
这一次我放弃了所有
只为能再与你相遇
一辈子不放手
YOur not here
Endless waiting are hard to bear
Your not here
Happy or Sadness is not here
I heal slowly from my wound silently
But your not here
Time going everyday n night
I heard the ticking of the clock in the silent
Eating alone in this middle of the night
I hear of nothing that u say
The phone left with only my touch n breath
How serious i am it wont b real
Your right I cant deny
YOur not here
I understand all of it I understand
When your not here love isnt here
When I needed the most your not here
Your not here
Just like the air I cant touch or see but its here
Sitting down on the dead end
Knocking at it n tryin to break it wif a bare hand
Ouch..It hurts but
I never felt this calm
Dont know why Im smiling
Telling myself I believe
Sitting n had my back facing the ending
I look back to the path i took
I saw so much n remember so much I hav gone through
I went out trace back the moment we gone through
The stairs the roadside..the path we walked..all of it..
Every scene are printed in my mind
So clearly that it seems Its happening
Catching the air,smiling to the air knowing its gonna juz be a memory
Why isnt im weeping?..
Cryin without tears? ..I had run out of tears
Silent…the whole mall was silent..
Saw ur favorite shops are closed
so quiet..so empty..
1st time I felt the mall was so scary
I cant breathe and even tried to escape from my shadows
Listening to my fav song
Lyric that says out all my thoughts
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Its heavy…its really heavy..I wana take it out from my chest so that i wont feel anything ever..
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Its dark
If I wasnt in the deep underground I wouldnt have wished for the sun
If it wasnt the rain I wouldnt have know the sky will shed tears
If it wasnt the winter I wouldnt have know my heart is as cold as the snow
If it wasnt the summer I wouldnt have know your smile is warmer than the sun
If it wasnt the autumn I wouldnt have know without you the world is nothing but just dead leaves
If it wasnt the spring I wouldnt have know with you around,flowers bloom n the life was so colourful
If it wasnt you I wouldnt have wished the time stop
If it wasnt for you I wouldnt have found out that Im EXIST
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For you I m gona stay at the dead end that God lead me to
Watching the sky like Before with a souless eyes
Waiting the day I touch the sky
If i have a God hand I will draw stars..lox of lox of stars..with a round Moon shine through ur darkness day..In the morning I will draw a lox of lox of clouds..sheltering you from the sunlight when you hate it;clear all the clouds when you need the sun;blow away all the stormy clouds before it could rain n make u catchin a cold;let rain pour when you need it to clear your problems;creates miracle n grant u a wish came true..Lil knight will oways here ..i will guide u thru the deep dark forest to find ur prince…
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Thank you for showing up in my life..I never felt so Alive..
Why is it so lonely..
Im not alone..but the whole atmosphere had me feel so alone
The more I wanted to let go the deeper I fall
Day by day..Its just like struggling in a quick sand
Thers no way im gona come up
I cant pull myself out anymore..
I decided..
I’ll take all the worst thing that could happen to me myself
For the sake of everyone I’ll take all the pain and get stuck by myself
juz for you..
KaY cant love but KaY still loves..
I’ll stay where i am now..
They told me its meaningless its hopeless
I told them I wasnt hoping for anything
Just let me be by yourside is more than enough
Atleast I had your smile before..atleast I had your attention before
Atleast I Exist…
Even your not around I still felt your presence and your aroma around me
God saw that Adam was lonely,
during his sleep,
God took one of Adam’s rib and created Eve.
Every man has been searching for his missing rib,
only when you find the woman of your life,
you’ll no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart
I found my rib but what left has left..let it remain missing..I dont need my rib
the worst way to miss someone
is to be sitting right beside them but knowing you can’t have them
Yet..
The best way to love someone is to let them go
let them search the true love of their own
and you kept them in your heart forever
Staying by their side and making sure the right person came to them
笑着流的泪
开心？还是强颜欢笑？
沉淀的感情
稀释 是下一个过程
蒸发 是最好的结局
总以为 慢慢的 就会得到
总以为 自己会越来越近
总以为 还是有那么一天
总以为 一切还是会有机
总以为 自己还能总以为
因为太过不甘，
原先的单纯已经不再简单。
你的温柔摆布了我，
甘愿，
即使不是给我。
其实，我只是被宠坏的孩子。
总是觉得，
是我能得到的东西，
我就要了。
走的路留下了算计的脚印。
手段演绎着我的特地，
即使造作，
也没关系。
心太小而你却太大。
无奈想把你装下，
却忘了硬来只会碎心。
眼眶太浅。
没有心碎，
还是那么的一块，
却没了它的美丽。
想念的心，
全部都是你的影子…
听着的歌，
变成都是你的旋律…
思念的心，
想的都是你的欢笑…
写出的心，
句句都是你的回忆…
原来都是因为你…
看着看着，
却又是一个黎明…
习惯在想你的時候拿起纸和笔
习惯听着王力宏的歌想念着你
习惯听着電話那頭的你說着每天看見的無聊趣事
习惯每个起不了床的早上想想今天是否能夠看到你
其实我不用难过什么
我拥有过的其实很多
只是连我自己也不晓的
原来自己曾经那么幸福过
我拥有过你的微笑
那就够了
我拥有过你的专注
那就够了
原来
我幸福过
没别的只想说对不起
不管你会怎么想你怎么说
也不会改变我的决定
你知道有时候感情事很难说
很难说爱人或朋友
从前到现在我真的感觉要
一想你我的心就发烧
想给你听我的心跳
想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想着你
搭车想着你
听歌想着你
合眼闭眼间出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情
我等不到你的回应
不想难为你
又不想放弃你
决定告诉你
对不起对不起我爱你
